Lovechild
Lovechild
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I N T H E B A N D R O O M
It all happens in the band room.
Jonny Cash, J Lo, Biggy Smalls and Iggy Pop.
H E A V E N
I woke up this morning in my little flat above the local hairdressing salon owned by the ever so generous, rambunctious Pete. It is on the main strip of the town i'm living in, that's littered with English pubs and vocal mutant sized sea gulls. I am sitting on my bright yellow lounge sleepy as a koala from pressing the snooze button for an hour, which made me miss my swim slot at the local pool, leaving me feeling mildly guilty about it. But the feeling drifts off as i will get the mid day session in, as it's my saviour for now living 2 hours from the surf. I sit with my fresh black coffee in my mitts and decided to dribble on a bit about my new found sense of peace before i retreat into the paint room. I have decided instead of treating you to the normal lovechild blogs of images, the language of the brain, maybe a few words i have had about life recently will enetertain your thoughts. ?I guess living away from the ocean has made me re direct my focus and i have found time to do things that i normally would set aside and replace by going to go catch a wave, or see my mates. At the moment I have neither of those luxuries. From the Imaginary Life book of wisdom or the words that fall from your mother ( who is usually neurotic at the best of times ) - "Make the most of what you have"....." Be present and pleasant " (my new motto) that is one of those annoying sayings amongst a load others that i wish i could reach for in the times i need them to settle my schizoid moments of distress and confusion. These phrases are usually at the back of the screaming crowd of unhelpful words that send me spiraling into an emotional spasm. This makes me giggle.
This thought of peace - a snippet of insight into the part of my brain I wish I could maintain whilst I rip along in life, but is usually led astray like a chimp to a banana, spasming from unhelpful emotions usually spurred on by my fears. Today there was a beam of light, a good note to a good morning which is rare as rocking horse shit for me! I'm not a morning person but this morning I have found a sense of peace within myself even if it lasts only for the morning. To me it seems our collection of feelings stem from the base of either love or fear. This new enlightenment came from watching a movie i found on the net. Yes it is a crazy one that most people are sick to death of hearing about and have probably watched many half arsed ones based on the same subject full of gobbeldy gook. I admit i loathe these crappy films that waste a good 2 hours of my life that make me scoff in disbelief, but heaven forbid i actually admit this, but i dig this movie. It shares in depth a huge amount of objective and factually based information stemmed from scientific results that...... if you have a spare 3 hours, download or watch on line the movie/doco 2012.
http://http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jc-55p1Al9k&feature=related?
It is old but it has the most amazing, ludicrous yet scientifically based food for thought facts and discussion that blew my mind. The bit I found striking is that all a human can feel is Love or Fear....I felt a sigh of relief because it feels like I have so much going on in my head, so many feelings and emotions. It’s so over whelming at times to even grasp a zibith of whats going on in my mind and to have it all tied for you in a neat red ribbon of just two emotions! Well..... I wanted to chuck a party! To some this would be obvious, to me it was the clincher that made me go "oh my god, I get it now" just like when someone tells you a joke and it takes a while to process then you burst out loud in a fit of laughter saying "hahahaha I get it now!" So if this is the truth, it seems extreme like you’re blissfully floating on a cloud of Love, or doomed to hell in a sea of Fear. What is the third thing, the balance of the two, the middle ground? ?
In life I have learned and been told that the best way to live is a life of balance, being the rebellious cretin I have always been not settling with a demand or answer. I don't stop until I am satisfied with my own found answer and one that makes sense. Growing up being a surfer it makes alot of sense, this balance thing being a way of living, like that is the main ingredient. I wanted to gain a feeling of it, a feeling or emotion of that thing i have heard so many times the creation of a balanced life, of contentment, secure in the thought of bliss and another word of magic, newly understood..........PEACE! Metaphorically speaking when surfing if we are off balance, we fall off our boards, but if we don't fall we don't learn......take it away Sheryl Crow.....isn't it ironic, don't you think?
What I am getting at is; as my life and time has ploughed along it is ever so clear to me that being the most annoyingly curious, persistent and tenacious kid that lives superstitiously by the number three. Three is my good omen number, my assurance, my thumbs up that all is well and I am where I am meant to be in life. It is a balanced number and the triangle or egyptian pyramid - a symbol that aids my anxiety stemming from a fear, but to me the missing ingredient, or link or the mystery solved for how i am going to find grace and contentment in my life. It is now about finding that feeling of PEACE - the middle ground of Love and Fear, the balance of both, and the balance of life. If we hold peace in our hearts and minds I feel we have succeeded in every facet of life. ?Through trial and error, from love and fear, bouncing from country to country and meeting a tapestry of people the threads of life somehow do complete a picture for you to see so clearly. All at a different speed and time, and mine could be different to yours but in the end if it makes sense to you. I am sure you will find peace and acceptance that both your Loves and Fears have helped you reach that point in life where you get to feel at peace with yourself and at peace with the bigger picture in our crazy world and our every doings that we call our life.
I'll finish off with this crazy short spasmodic thought like a hippy would say, throwing you a couple of fingers that is the universal symbol for Peace, with: "Peace man!"
Edward Wood
Clouds, wings and other things
Edward wood .....
Clever mates Sophie and Woody put on a fine show the other night.
Sophie curated her lover Edward Woods' art event at the ' Crate Gallery ' on Portobello road, London. It was a super fun night, and Woody as he is fondly known as made a very respectable noise in the old cobbled mew. ( a lane way where they used to keep the horse and carts in sheds )
Check out his clean esoteric style.....
I deliver you Edward Wood!
